Ok, so I WAS posting daily. It is amazing how quickly life landslides you right off track. Anyway, picking up where I left off and moving forward not looking back......
Today 11/1/11
Today I have begun again to focus on losing weight and doing what I am needing to. I have been fighting illness for going on 3 weeks and it has been greatly distracting from "dieting." On the plus side the habits I have developed and knowledge I have been applying has kept me from gaining. I last weighed myself at 303. Getting past this 300ish mark is a hurdle, and one I truly believe is mind over matter, excuses over success.
Today I am getting myself back onto track so lift a glass and here's to "if at first you don't succeed try, try again!"
Watch the Weight GO!
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
10/12
Ok, well it is almost 10/13 at this point so I am getting in my day before it isn't "today" anymore.
Today was a fair day. I weighed in about 303 (I think). I started strong with a protein breakfast. And lunch wasn't bad either, however the hazelnut mocha was definitely a bad idea. It has been a while since I have had coffee that sweet and holy moley that was a big shock to the system. My delicious indulgence cost me a headache and tummy ache, in the long run....eh.....not too worth it. Lesson learned, moving on. Dinner was a good balance of protein, vegetable and carb AND family friendly so I didn't have to cook two meals! Yeah!
Tomorrow is a new day and a new start!
Today was a fair day. I weighed in about 303 (I think). I started strong with a protein breakfast. And lunch wasn't bad either, however the hazelnut mocha was definitely a bad idea. It has been a while since I have had coffee that sweet and holy moley that was a big shock to the system. My delicious indulgence cost me a headache and tummy ache, in the long run....eh.....not too worth it. Lesson learned, moving on. Dinner was a good balance of protein, vegetable and carb AND family friendly so I didn't have to cook two meals! Yeah!
Tomorrow is a new day and a new start!
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
As Promised 10/11
I said I would and so here I am. It is almost bedtime and I am checking in for the day!
Today I did fairly well following my "diet" protocols. I am currently drinking water to quell my "hunger" (aka I want to eat because it smells good) pangs and heading to bed so I will not be tempted to!
I have chosen, currently, to be aware of what I am eating but allow myself limited carbs so long as I keep my overall calorie intake low. In other words if I want a little rice with dinner, during the day I stick to my diet program meals or protein/vegetable only meals and be mindful of not adding any extras like dressings.
I am keeping positive and throwing myself into positive activities!
My motivational thought for this week....
Today I did fairly well following my "diet" protocols. I am currently drinking water to quell my "hunger" (aka I want to eat because it smells good) pangs and heading to bed so I will not be tempted to!
I have chosen, currently, to be aware of what I am eating but allow myself limited carbs so long as I keep my overall calorie intake low. In other words if I want a little rice with dinner, during the day I stick to my diet program meals or protein/vegetable only meals and be mindful of not adding any extras like dressings.
I am keeping positive and throwing myself into positive activities!
My motivational thought for this week....
“You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself in any direction you choose. You're on your own.
And you know what you know. You are the guy who'll decide where to go.”
~Dr. Seuss~
It is up to ME to take this path and the attitude I am going to have while I am on it. The only thing stopping me.....is ME.
“You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself in any direction you choose. You're on your own.
And you know what you know. You are the guy who'll decide where to go.”
~Dr. Seuss~
Seriously???
OK I am starting to think I am going to change the title of this blog to "I'm SO Stuck!"
The truth of the matter is I have allowed myself to get caught up in giving up. My eyes wandered to the huge long term goal and my courage and will power tuck-tailed and made a mad dash in search of something less daunting. Apparently when it comes to "fight or flight" I am more of a winged creature.
My numbers from weigh in to weigh in fluctuate from just below 300 to just over and I just can't seem to budge them...or won't budge them, either way the scale is making no progress (and neither am I.) My inches have been consistently moving down which is great, but to be honest with myself; as much as I want to allow myself to be satisfied with my little inch decline it isn't really progress. And, again being honest with myself, I know I am capable of MUCH better.
So.....I am checking in again. I know I have the tendency to become very blog quiet when I am not doing well (and although I have been crazy busy) I can no longer make excuses. The ability to make this happen is in me and I have to make the decision to do it! So....again....I am committing to keep this blog updated...good or bad.
Feel free to send me a virtual butt kick if you notice I've gone quiet!
The truth of the matter is I have allowed myself to get caught up in giving up. My eyes wandered to the huge long term goal and my courage and will power tuck-tailed and made a mad dash in search of something less daunting. Apparently when it comes to "fight or flight" I am more of a winged creature.
My numbers from weigh in to weigh in fluctuate from just below 300 to just over and I just can't seem to budge them...or won't budge them, either way the scale is making no progress (and neither am I.) My inches have been consistently moving down which is great, but to be honest with myself; as much as I want to allow myself to be satisfied with my little inch decline it isn't really progress. And, again being honest with myself, I know I am capable of MUCH better.
So.....I am checking in again. I know I have the tendency to become very blog quiet when I am not doing well (and although I have been crazy busy) I can no longer make excuses. The ability to make this happen is in me and I have to make the decision to do it! So....again....I am committing to keep this blog updated...good or bad.
Feel free to send me a virtual butt kick if you notice I've gone quiet!
Friday, September 16, 2011
Check-In 9/16/2011
Weigh-in was last night and the results are in.....
I lost 3 inches and 11.5 pounds!!
Yeah! I am getting back on track! AND this puts me back UNDER 300 pounds again!
(And just a side note my sister did really well too!)
Now I just need to keep my focus and I will be able to reach my first major goal of 250 before I know it!
I also need to comment that I think I was wrong about my new coach. This weigh in was better, not just because I had success, but because we really got to talk. She has a heart to help people get healthy not just lose weight. I also got to see her weigh in numbers over time and as I joking said to her "You are human!" We both laughed and strangely enough I felt better knowing she has had ups and downs too. Yes she has done this program with no deviation, but it doesn't mean she hasn't struggled or thinks little of me because I struggle.
I am back on the train of working hard and look forward posting a positive check in next week!
I lost 3 inches and 11.5 pounds!!
Yeah! I am getting back on track! AND this puts me back UNDER 300 pounds again!
(And just a side note my sister did really well too!)
Now I just need to keep my focus and I will be able to reach my first major goal of 250 before I know it!
“Many of the great achievements of the world were accomplished by tired and discouraged men who kept on working.”
~unknown~ from thinkexist.com
I also need to comment that I think I was wrong about my new coach. This weigh in was better, not just because I had success, but because we really got to talk. She has a heart to help people get healthy not just lose weight. I also got to see her weigh in numbers over time and as I joking said to her "You are human!" We both laughed and strangely enough I felt better knowing she has had ups and downs too. Yes she has done this program with no deviation, but it doesn't mean she hasn't struggled or thinks little of me because I struggle.
I am back on the train of working hard and look forward posting a positive check in next week!
Monday, September 12, 2011
Update for September
So it is the middle of September and my last post was in August. Needless to say I have a bit to update.
First, I have a new coach with my diet program. She is nice, but I have a feeling the chemistry is going to be a bit of a struggle. Only time will tell.
Second, my weigh ins have not been going well, nor has my full commitment to the diet program. I do want very much to succeed at loosing weight, but I have to find my way back and my personal drive again. I have been working very hard on this and this current week has been one of the best yet. It also has been a huge help that my sister and I have been working together to learn about each other, our strengths, our weaknesses and how to help, encourage and motivate each other effectively. As we help each other we have been helping ourselves.
I also made a personal new discovery. I am not the emotional eater that I thought I was, I am a social eater. I like to eat for social reasons and not being able to fully participate (by eating the food at the event) I feel left out and incomplete to the event, which also leaves me feeling upset and frustrated. I am not sure how I am going to work with this realization, but it is interesting for me either way. Realizing this helped me to understand why I lash out and feel angry when people tell me "it is no big deal to just not eat" at a social gathering or "it's just one ____ there will be another one." I feel as though they are telling me to miss out on life events and the reason, the food and diet, is just not a good enough reason to me.
My next weigh in this Thursday, September 15th. I am hoping it goes well.
First, I have a new coach with my diet program. She is nice, but I have a feeling the chemistry is going to be a bit of a struggle. Only time will tell.
Second, my weigh ins have not been going well, nor has my full commitment to the diet program. I do want very much to succeed at loosing weight, but I have to find my way back and my personal drive again. I have been working very hard on this and this current week has been one of the best yet. It also has been a huge help that my sister and I have been working together to learn about each other, our strengths, our weaknesses and how to help, encourage and motivate each other effectively. As we help each other we have been helping ourselves.
I also made a personal new discovery. I am not the emotional eater that I thought I was, I am a social eater. I like to eat for social reasons and not being able to fully participate (by eating the food at the event) I feel left out and incomplete to the event, which also leaves me feeling upset and frustrated. I am not sure how I am going to work with this realization, but it is interesting for me either way. Realizing this helped me to understand why I lash out and feel angry when people tell me "it is no big deal to just not eat" at a social gathering or "it's just one ____ there will be another one." I feel as though they are telling me to miss out on life events and the reason, the food and diet, is just not a good enough reason to me.
My next weigh in this Thursday, September 15th. I am hoping it goes well.
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Check-In Catch Up
Ok, ok, ok.....I know it has been a looooong time since I have been on. My apologies.
The past few weeks have been....rough, however each step is a step on this journey so here it is.....
7/26- not good weighed in at 311. Gulp....gained quite a bit on my birthday binge
8/2- lost 2 pounds and 4.5 inches.....slow and steady
8/9- lost 1 pound
8/16- lost 1 pound and 3 inches
Although I very much enjoyed my birthday binge I am in retrospect regretting it a bit as I continue to struggle with getting mind over taste buds. It is not for lack of wanting to lose weight, but rather my weakness for foods I prefer that makes staying on track difficult. This week I am working REALLY hard to do my best at meeting all my program requirements! I can do this and next week will be a better weigh in!
The past few weeks have been....rough, however each step is a step on this journey so here it is.....
7/26- not good weighed in at 311. Gulp....gained quite a bit on my birthday binge
8/2- lost 2 pounds and 4.5 inches.....slow and steady
8/9- lost 1 pound
8/16- lost 1 pound and 3 inches
Although I very much enjoyed my birthday binge I am in retrospect regretting it a bit as I continue to struggle with getting mind over taste buds. It is not for lack of wanting to lose weight, but rather my weakness for foods I prefer that makes staying on track difficult. This week I am working REALLY hard to do my best at meeting all my program requirements! I can do this and next week will be a better weigh in!
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Check-In 7/19/11
Weigh in last night......
I lost 3 inches and 3 pounds.....coming in at 297.5!
Under 300 pound for the FIRST time in over SIX YEARS! Woot! Woot! I did it!
I am on a prep week for the break I am taking this weekend to celebrate my birthday so next week probably won't be the greatest weigh in, but for today I am under 300 pounds and I am SO happy! This puts me 47 pounds away from my first big goal of 250 pounds and 162 pounds away from my overall goal (gulp) of 135 pounds.
One step and goal at a time I can do this!!
I lost 3 inches and 3 pounds.....coming in at 297.5!
Under 300 pound for the FIRST time in over SIX YEARS! Woot! Woot! I did it!
I am on a prep week for the break I am taking this weekend to celebrate my birthday so next week probably won't be the greatest weigh in, but for today I am under 300 pounds and I am SO happy! This puts me 47 pounds away from my first big goal of 250 pounds and 162 pounds away from my overall goal (gulp) of 135 pounds.
One step and goal at a time I can do this!!
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Check-In 7/12/11
Weigh in last night went fairly well. My coach did a wonderful job of listening to my "vent" of frustration and in giving a good balance of advice, encouragement and "get over it," which I needed. After all the talking, and interestingly enough a LOT of laughing, it was time for measurements.
I lost 1.5 pounds and 7 inches!
For a brief moment the scale flickered under 300, but slipped back up. Aw bummer. However, next week I should weigh in under 300 pounds for the first time in over 6 YEARS! Wow!
Since starting this program I have lost about 35 pounds, 38 inches and one dress size!
I lost 1.5 pounds and 7 inches!
For a brief moment the scale flickered under 300, but slipped back up. Aw bummer. However, next week I should weigh in under 300 pounds for the first time in over 6 YEARS! Wow!
Since starting this program I have lost about 35 pounds, 38 inches and one dress size!
Monday, July 11, 2011
Weighted down.....
Tomorrow is weigh in and I am not at all looking forward to it. And it isn't even because I am worried about the results. Sadly I have reached an emotional wall in my dieting and I am struggling to fight it. I wonder why dieting seems to be related to feeling miserable for me. Things come to mind as to how I can justify my feelings, but none of it seems to matter as I am going to have to keep pushing on either way. I have to lose the weight. I have to do something. I may as well continue on. Right now I just wish it felt more exciting and less overwhelming.
In the beginning the diet was a new exciting journey with challenges and exciting goals. Now it just feels like survival- one very, very,. very, very looooooong survival. Hmmph. I hope I can re-kindle my excitement and motivation soon- I want to be excited again.
In the beginning the diet was a new exciting journey with challenges and exciting goals. Now it just feels like survival- one very, very,. very, very looooooong survival. Hmmph. I hope I can re-kindle my excitement and motivation soon- I want to be excited again.
Thursday, July 7, 2011
Weigh-In 7/6/11
Last nights weigh in was short, sweet and to the point.
Lost 3.5 inches and 7 pounds!
Yeah! This means I am now only 2 pounds away from being under 300- something I have not been in YEARS and I have reached my goal in order to take a little break to celebrate my birthday!
I have had more than one person question my logic in taking a break in the program to celebrate when I am doing so well and it is going to undo some of this hard work and the only answer I have is this:
I want and need this time to celebrate. I started focusing on not just losing weight, but getting healthy and getting my life back before I started this diet program and I am going to have this program fit with my plans not take me over. Otherwise I'm living a plan and not my life.
Lost 3.5 inches and 7 pounds!
Yeah! This means I am now only 2 pounds away from being under 300- something I have not been in YEARS and I have reached my goal in order to take a little break to celebrate my birthday!
I have had more than one person question my logic in taking a break in the program to celebrate when I am doing so well and it is going to undo some of this hard work and the only answer I have is this:
I want and need this time to celebrate. I started focusing on not just losing weight, but getting healthy and getting my life back before I started this diet program and I am going to have this program fit with my plans not take me over. Otherwise I'm living a plan and not my life.
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Weigh-In 6/28/11
Ok. So last week was a bad weigh in because I totally gave into my cravings and went off protocol. This week I worked hard to stay on track, although there were some tough days. Last night's results.........
Lost 1.5 inches and 4 pounds!
Not as good as I wanted, but about what I expected.
This week my focus is to get my water intake back up and stay tight to following the program! With busy on the go days and feeling extra hungry with the longer days it is tough for me, but I know I can re-focus and do this right!
Lost 1.5 inches and 4 pounds!
Not as good as I wanted, but about what I expected.
This week my focus is to get my water intake back up and stay tight to following the program! With busy on the go days and feeling extra hungry with the longer days it is tough for me, but I know I can re-focus and do this right!
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Tonight....
Weigh in is tonight and I am nervous again. I know I tried my best to do really well this week, but I think some of the leftover guilt from last weeks indulgence is weighing me down. 50 minutes till truth time.......
Monday, June 27, 2011
Weigh-In 6/21/11
This is being posted late, but is going to be short and sweet......
This was NOT a good week. 0 inches lost and 5 pounds gained. Blah.
I do confess it is my fault because I went off my plan and gave into the foods that called my name.
This week I have worked hard to stay on task- which was extra hard after the little bunny trail of indulgence- and am hoping for better results. We'll see.
This was NOT a good week. 0 inches lost and 5 pounds gained. Blah.
I do confess it is my fault because I went off my plan and gave into the foods that called my name.
This week I have worked hard to stay on task- which was extra hard after the little bunny trail of indulgence- and am hoping for better results. We'll see.
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Weigh-In 6/15/11
Weigh in with my coach was last night and the results are.....
Lost 1.5 inches and 7 pounds!
Wow! I wasn't expecting that, but I was working really hard this week to do well so it looks like it paid off. This week I want to continue pushing myself to really follow the program with no "slip ups." I am also doing a lot more experimenting in the kitchen so we'll see how that goes too (yikes.)
Lost 1.5 inches and 7 pounds!
Wow! I wasn't expecting that, but I was working really hard this week to do well so it looks like it paid off. This week I want to continue pushing myself to really follow the program with no "slip ups." I am also doing a lot more experimenting in the kitchen so we'll see how that goes too (yikes.)
Monday, June 13, 2011
Check-In 6/7/11
Weigh in this past week did not go well, and to be honest I didn't expect it to.
Lost 2 inches and 0 pounds.
However, this week I have been focusing and working really hard to do much better. So fingers crossed Wednesday night will bring more positive results!
And I do have to say thank you to those who have been encouraging- it means more than you know, especially on the tough days and through the rough weeks!
Lost 2 inches and 0 pounds.
However, this week I have been focusing and working really hard to do much better. So fingers crossed Wednesday night will bring more positive results!
And I do have to say thank you to those who have been encouraging- it means more than you know, especially on the tough days and through the rough weeks!
Thursday, June 2, 2011
Weigh-In 6/1/11
Ok so last night (on my 10 year anniversary) I went in for my weigh in, nervous that it would be a bummer week because of how I was feeling. And the results are...........................
I lost 4 1/2 inches and 5 and 1/2 pounds!
Yeah! I have to keep going and maintain consistent weight loss for another 17 pounds in order to earn my birthday weekend off! I can do it!
I lost 4 1/2 inches and 5 and 1/2 pounds!
Yeah! I have to keep going and maintain consistent weight loss for another 17 pounds in order to earn my birthday weekend off! I can do it!
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Nervous
I am so nervous for my "weigh-in" appointment tonight. Ugh. It always feels like when I am doing something right something else has to go wrong. This past week has felt awful even though I was trying hard to do my best. I'm bloated and tired and having yet another menstrual cycle- which last time this happened the scale went UP- so I am not expecting good news tonight. I am so bummed. Hopefully I am wrong, but all I can do is wait and see.
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Happy Dance
Yesterday I accidentally grabbed a smaller pair of pants and after considering for a moment decided to try them on. (Heck, why not right- worst case they don't fit which is kind of how it has been anyway, no loss right?) So I put them on hoping to at least get them to the on but not zip-able stage- which is progress since last I tried they wouldn't go over the butt!
Oh yeah! Oh yeah! Oh yeah! I got them on!!!!
and
I got them ZIPPED! I wore a smaller pants size WOOT! WOOT!!
Yes I admit they are a stretch design and an older pair, but I couldn't wear them before and I can now so I am not raining on my parade!
Smaller pants woot woot! Smaller pants woot! woot! (Hope your dancing 'cause I am! Woot! Woot!)
Oh yeah! Oh yeah! Oh yeah! I got them on!!!!
and
I got them ZIPPED! I wore a smaller pants size WOOT! WOOT!!
Yes I admit they are a stretch design and an older pair, but I couldn't wear them before and I can now so I am not raining on my parade!
Smaller pants woot woot! Smaller pants woot! woot! (Hope your dancing 'cause I am! Woot! Woot!)
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Check-In 5/25
Last night I was really nervous because last week didn't go very well. I worked hard to follow all the changes my coach suggested last week, like drinking more water, and as I went in I felt I had done well, but still had doubts.
So........
I lost 6 1/2 inches and 9 1/2 pounds! That is a total of 18 inches in three weeks!!
Very exciting! The goal this week is to continue following the changes and drink as much water as I can stand. PLUS this week I got to pick my own foods from the program AND I got my hands on some recipes to try too!
Fingers crossed for next week!
Oh and on a side note- I am considering taking a weekend break for my birthday in July, but I can only take it if I earn it by losing an additional 22 pounds by then. I can do it! I can do it! I can do it!
So........
I lost 6 1/2 inches and 9 1/2 pounds! That is a total of 18 inches in three weeks!!
Very exciting! The goal this week is to continue following the changes and drink as much water as I can stand. PLUS this week I got to pick my own foods from the program AND I got my hands on some recipes to try too!
Fingers crossed for next week!
Oh and on a side note- I am considering taking a weekend break for my birthday in July, but I can only take it if I earn it by losing an additional 22 pounds by then. I can do it! I can do it! I can do it!
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Check-In 5/18
My weigh in yesterday did not go as well as I had hoped. I lost 6 1/2 inches, but the scale went up a little bit. (sigh) We are looking into trying some new things this week to see if I can change that result for next weigh in. I did not cheat on the program intentionally, but there may have been a few details I didn't pay attention to that I am focused on this week.
However, I am still going to CELEBRATE my 6 1/2 inches down!! Woo-Hoo!!
However, I am still going to CELEBRATE my 6 1/2 inches down!! Woo-Hoo!!
Sunday, May 15, 2011
My First Check-In
Last Wednesday (May 11th) I had my very first weigh and measure on this new program and.......
I am so excited about my first week of results and even though this week has been tough and rough for me I try to keep those results in the forefront of my mind. And my kids have been so, so , SO supportive. When I am having a tough time, or having a craving or eating something that I'd rather not be eating I look at them and say "Help mommy! Remind mommy why I'm doing this!" and they are sweet- they do just that! Sometimes they are "child-like" honest (ouch) but it always re-inspires me to not give up or give in.
So far this week I am doing fair to pretty good. A few days I barely made the minimum of 64oz on water and a couple times I had some meal struggles, but no cheating (unless it was on accident.) I have also learned that for my body timing is CRUCIAL! When I am hungry I am hungry and I need to eat- I cannot wait or I get CRANKY and tired! But when I stay on track I feel pretty good and I am finding my focus isn't always food or what I can do with food or when I am eating next, but rather on things I can do to stay busy- it is a nice feeling.
Wednesday I weigh-in again and we'll see how I have done. Right now I am worried I haven't done so well, but I need to think positive. I have three days to do my best and I am going to!
I lost 5 inches and 14 pounds! WOO-HOO!
I am so excited about my first week of results and even though this week has been tough and rough for me I try to keep those results in the forefront of my mind. And my kids have been so, so , SO supportive. When I am having a tough time, or having a craving or eating something that I'd rather not be eating I look at them and say "Help mommy! Remind mommy why I'm doing this!" and they are sweet- they do just that! Sometimes they are "child-like" honest (ouch) but it always re-inspires me to not give up or give in.
So far this week I am doing fair to pretty good. A few days I barely made the minimum of 64oz on water and a couple times I had some meal struggles, but no cheating (unless it was on accident.) I have also learned that for my body timing is CRUCIAL! When I am hungry I am hungry and I need to eat- I cannot wait or I get CRANKY and tired! But when I stay on track I feel pretty good and I am finding my focus isn't always food or what I can do with food or when I am eating next, but rather on things I can do to stay busy- it is a nice feeling.
Wednesday I weigh-in again and we'll see how I have done. Right now I am worried I haven't done so well, but I need to think positive. I have three days to do my best and I am going to!
Monday, May 9, 2011
Something NEW.... something Ideal
Last Wednesday (May 4) I began a NEW diet program called Ideal Protein and although it is tough I am really excited about it! It works sort of like a high protein diet combined with nutri-system and a coach that requires a high commitment level. The program provides 2 high protein, low calorie meals and a snack and then allow you to make one of your own meals with protein and vegetables. No carbs and no sugar- which for me really is the toughest part. You report back weekly for weigh in and measurements, to discuss how you did and to get the next weeks meal. There is NO CHEATING tolerated. You cheat they tell you to come back when you are ready, period.
My sister and I are working this program together and it helps so much to have a partner in this. She is one week ahead of me so is able to give me heads up and knows what I may be experiencing and helps me through it (thanks sis!) Honestly, it is not easy. These 5 days have been tough, but doable! The provided food isn't necessarily exciting but (most) of it is ok to yummy for what it is. The great thing is I am learning to pay attention to what I eat, to make better food choices and to cook new and healthier things- all of which will help me long after I no longer am on the diet!!
These past 5 days:
And as of today I am doing well and looking forward to my appointment Wednesday with fingers crossed for good news. I know there will be days the food will get boring and I will want to give up or my goal will feel so far away, but I just KNOW that I can do this, especially with so many cheering me on and my sis right here in the trenches with me.
My sister and I are working this program together and it helps so much to have a partner in this. She is one week ahead of me so is able to give me heads up and knows what I may be experiencing and helps me through it (thanks sis!) Honestly, it is not easy. These 5 days have been tough, but doable! The provided food isn't necessarily exciting but (most) of it is ok to yummy for what it is. The great thing is I am learning to pay attention to what I eat, to make better food choices and to cook new and healthier things- all of which will help me long after I no longer am on the diet!!
These past 5 days:
- I have not given in or cheated on the program and except for a few learning mistakes and I am following as best I can to the program.
- I drank 64+ ounces of water each day (and when you gotta pee you GOTTA pee lol)
- Have tried new no sugar, no carb, no/low calorie dressings and dips
- Cooked and ate red and yellow peppers (those were a HECK NO before)
- Tried cauliflower "popcorn"
- Made cauliflower mash (um this still needs some trial and error lol)
And as of today I am doing well and looking forward to my appointment Wednesday with fingers crossed for good news. I know there will be days the food will get boring and I will want to give up or my goal will feel so far away, but I just KNOW that I can do this, especially with so many cheering me on and my sis right here in the trenches with me.
“Only as high as I reach can I grow, only as far as I seek can I go, only as deep as I look can I see, only as much as I dream can I be.”
~Karen Ravn~
Monday, May 2, 2011
Checking in..May 2, 2011
Ok so far the past week (or so) I have been working on drinking water and moving more.
I am happy to say that with the exception of yesterday I have been drinking 60+ ounces of water a day and average about 4000 steps. I keep a water bottle with me and I challenge myself to drink and refill it twice. I know the steps need to be higher, but each day brings a chance to improve! I am STILL fighting some illness that is draining my energy but I am fighting the drain and doing what I can!
I am happy to say that with the exception of yesterday I have been drinking 60+ ounces of water a day and average about 4000 steps. I keep a water bottle with me and I challenge myself to drink and refill it twice. I know the steps need to be higher, but each day brings a chance to improve! I am STILL fighting some illness that is draining my energy but I am fighting the drain and doing what I can!
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Finding my way...again
So I have written and re-written this post....and there really is no easy or cute or creative way to say it.....
I messed up and got off track on my weight loss challenge.
That is it. And now I am ready to re-focus and get back on track. On the plus side, unlike times before, I am doing this of my own accord and with my own drive and for my own reasons AND so even in the times I do get off course I don't go too far astray because I do want this. I have been edging around doing the right things just not throwing myself all in like I know I should and want to.
As a bonus I will admit I have been offered an incredible invitation with an amazing incentive to achieve a big step in my personal challenge and I have accepted! I cannot allow this incentive to slip through my fingers because of laziness and excuses! So...here we, or rather I, go again! I know I can do this and I will!
Right now I have some illness kicking my butt and draining my energy, but today I challenged myself to use what energy I had to move and I did- just a little work around the house and a walk across a parking lot rather than driving right to the front of the store- and it used me up but I am glad I did it! now we'll see how I do tomorrow!
I messed up and got off track on my weight loss challenge.
That is it. And now I am ready to re-focus and get back on track. On the plus side, unlike times before, I am doing this of my own accord and with my own drive and for my own reasons AND so even in the times I do get off course I don't go too far astray because I do want this. I have been edging around doing the right things just not throwing myself all in like I know I should and want to.
As a bonus I will admit I have been offered an incredible invitation with an amazing incentive to achieve a big step in my personal challenge and I have accepted! I cannot allow this incentive to slip through my fingers because of laziness and excuses! So...here we, or rather I, go again! I know I can do this and I will!
Right now I have some illness kicking my butt and draining my energy, but today I challenged myself to use what energy I had to move and I did- just a little work around the house and a walk across a parking lot rather than driving right to the front of the store- and it used me up but I am glad I did it! now we'll see how I do tomorrow!
Friday, March 25, 2011
Woot! Woot!
I WALKED TODAY!!!!
Oh yeah I am so excited. I said I would and I did- thank you sis! Last night while talking to my sister I told her, admitted to her, that I just don't have ummph I need on my own to get re-started. I thought I did. I thought if I just dug down deep I could find the will power, but I admit my will power was defeated by laziness (insert cool gun sound effect here followed by a dramatic death!!) So she asked me- want to walk tomorrow- to which responded "no" while nodding my head vigorously "YES!!" So we set a time.
Well this morning I actually GOT UP and DID IT! Yeah!
Ok...and I didn't just do it.....I kicked its butt! I started walking BEFORE sis got to me, figuring I would meet her halfway. Well someone slept in and I actually got all the way to her before she left! WOOT! (happy, happy hip shaking dance!)
We did it! We did it! We did it!!
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Hmmm...
Ok so the diet bandwagon has gotten away from me (yes again) and I think it is driving at lightspeed because I can't seem to get my butt back on it. Not good.
The last two days I have taken small steps in the right direction- more water, more movement.
I have to admit that sometimes it is frustrating having the knowledge floating around in my head ready to burst but only having the willpower of a gnat so I know exactly how much I am not doing of something that should be so freaking simple. (sigh) I feel like I have a Nike neon sign blinking in my head "Just do it! Just do it! Just do it!"
No excuses. Just another day to keep trying.
The last two days I have taken small steps in the right direction- more water, more movement.
I have to admit that sometimes it is frustrating having the knowledge floating around in my head ready to burst but only having the willpower of a gnat so I know exactly how much I am not doing of something that should be so freaking simple. (sigh) I feel like I have a Nike neon sign blinking in my head "Just do it! Just do it! Just do it!"
No excuses. Just another day to keep trying.
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
March 9, 2011
Journal for today:
I drank more water than I have been but not as much as I should. My meals and snacks were all over the map and I did give into a late night chocolate craving.
On the plus side I tried to keep decent sized portions, didn't eat as much in my late night sweet binge as I wanted to and I didn't take a midday nap.
And I journal-ed as promised!
Goal tomorrow: Do better than today and share my progress!!!
I drank more water than I have been but not as much as I should. My meals and snacks were all over the map and I did give into a late night chocolate craving.
On the plus side I tried to keep decent sized portions, didn't eat as much in my late night sweet binge as I wanted to and I didn't take a midday nap.
And I journal-ed as promised!
Goal tomorrow: Do better than today and share my progress!!!
STRUGGLING!
Ok, I am seriously not doing so well getting back on track. My lazy-itis is getting bad and I cannot get motivated to even do the simple things I know will help- journaling, water, going to bed on time, etc. Part of me wants to say try again next week and most of me knows I need to do something NOW!!!
Today I will journal on here. No matter how crappy. At the end of the day I am going to journal how I did- it is a start.
There now I've said it so I need to do it!!
TTYL then!
Today I will journal on here. No matter how crappy. At the end of the day I am going to journal how I did- it is a start.
There now I've said it so I need to do it!!
TTYL then!
Monday, February 28, 2011
Starting........again
So I started this challenge a while ago- at least a month I think- and now I need to start over. And this is a common pattern for me to be honest, this time is a little different however. For one, although I know it is going to hurt like a son of a gun I actually want to start again. I can feel it my body and mind that it wants this so that is helpful- although I hesitated to admit it because now there is no excuse. And for two, because it wasn't me giving up and letting myself make excuses with being too busy that put the wrench in my routine it was family illness, and not just any family but my sister- my butt kicking, encouragement and "trainer"- sister. Truth, it was scary and has been a long, but good and steady recovery for her and she is anxious to kick my butt again....so here we are....starting over, well starting again anyway.
I am keeping my challenges as they are and just moving forward.
I am keeping my challenges as they are and just moving forward.
Thursday, February 24, 2011
The Challenge!!
I weigh in at 350 pounds give or take and the time has come the time is now that I am getting healthy!!!
This challenge in not just about pounds lost and smaller size- although it is definitely a BIG part of it- but it is also about making the CHANGES needed to live a healthy life!
The BIG Overall Goal:
My overall picture is to get healthy and that includes getting my weight down to a healthy weight, about 135, and maintaining healthy life habits like better food choices, better eating habits and consistent exercise. My life will not be sedentary and I will be up and out seeing this world with my two eyes face to face rather than face to screen. I want to be able to play sports and go on hikes and travel with my family.
The Current BIG Focus Goal (2/3/2011):
In order to make the big overall goal I am going to have to focus on "smaller" focus goals that are big enough to challenge me and that I have to work toward, but that I will be able to accomplish in a shorter amount of time. I know me and if I can't reward myself sometime soon I will get frustrated and give up and the big overall goal is a long ways down the road. If I only ever aim for that I know that all I will feel is failure. So....
My big focus goal is: To lose enough weight to travel to California with my kids and take them to Disneyland. I want to be able to do this by Fall of 2011. I want to be able to walk the park, ride the rides and travel in the airplane without struggling. As of right now I barely fit in an airplane seat and I know I cannot fit on a ride and I could not walk the park all day. I need to come down at least 4 dress sizes, I believe. I need to be under 300 pounds for sure. I have 7 months to do this. If I could lose 10 pounds a month that would get me under 300 pounds!
Monthly Goal(s):
Each month I want to give my self tiny goals to keep my focus forward. I want to challenge myself in multiple aspects of my life because this challenge isn't just about weight for me, it is about life and being able to live mine to the fullest!
This month my "number" goal is: to lose any "number" from anywhere- an inch, a pound, a size- doesn't matter so long as it is down by one!
This month my action challenge is: is to MOVE MORE- aiming to go from sedentary to at least 3 days a week with 30 minutes plus of movement.
This month my food challenge is: to improve portion size and increase water intake.
This month my personal challenge: is to read or listen to something positive daily. It only takes a moment but the positive energy is what I need.
Slow, steady, simple and achievable!
This challenge in not just about pounds lost and smaller size- although it is definitely a BIG part of it- but it is also about making the CHANGES needed to live a healthy life!
The BIG Overall Goal:
My overall picture is to get healthy and that includes getting my weight down to a healthy weight, about 135, and maintaining healthy life habits like better food choices, better eating habits and consistent exercise. My life will not be sedentary and I will be up and out seeing this world with my two eyes face to face rather than face to screen. I want to be able to play sports and go on hikes and travel with my family.
The Current BIG Focus Goal (2/3/2011):
In order to make the big overall goal I am going to have to focus on "smaller" focus goals that are big enough to challenge me and that I have to work toward, but that I will be able to accomplish in a shorter amount of time. I know me and if I can't reward myself sometime soon I will get frustrated and give up and the big overall goal is a long ways down the road. If I only ever aim for that I know that all I will feel is failure. So....
My big focus goal is: To lose enough weight to travel to California with my kids and take them to Disneyland. I want to be able to do this by Fall of 2011. I want to be able to walk the park, ride the rides and travel in the airplane without struggling. As of right now I barely fit in an airplane seat and I know I cannot fit on a ride and I could not walk the park all day. I need to come down at least 4 dress sizes, I believe. I need to be under 300 pounds for sure. I have 7 months to do this. If I could lose 10 pounds a month that would get me under 300 pounds!
Monthly Goal(s):
Each month I want to give my self tiny goals to keep my focus forward. I want to challenge myself in multiple aspects of my life because this challenge isn't just about weight for me, it is about life and being able to live mine to the fullest!
This month my "number" goal is: to lose any "number" from anywhere- an inch, a pound, a size- doesn't matter so long as it is down by one!
This month my action challenge is: is to MOVE MORE- aiming to go from sedentary to at least 3 days a week with 30 minutes plus of movement.
This month my food challenge is: to improve portion size and increase water intake.
This month my personal challenge: is to read or listen to something positive daily. It only takes a moment but the positive energy is what I need.
Slow, steady, simple and achievable!
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