Check-In 7/19/11

 Weigh in last night......

I lost 3 inches and 3 pounds.....coming in at 297.5!
Under 300 pound for the FIRST time in over SIX YEARS! Woot! Woot! I did it!

I am on a prep week for the break I am taking this weekend to celebrate my birthday so next week probably won't be the greatest weigh in, but for today I am under 300 pounds and I am SO happy! This puts me 47 pounds away from my first big goal of 250 pounds and 162 pounds away from my overall goal (gulp) of 135 pounds.

One step and goal at a time I can do this!!

Check-In 7/12/11

Weigh in last night went fairly well. My coach did a wonderful job of listening to my "vent" of frustration and in giving a good balance of advice, encouragement and "get over it," which I needed. After all the talking, and interestingly enough a LOT of laughing, it was time for measurements.

I lost 1.5 pounds and 7 inches!

For a brief moment the scale flickered under 300, but slipped back up. Aw bummer. However, next week I should weigh in under 300 pounds for the first time in over 6 YEARS! Wow!

Since starting this program I have lost about 35 pounds, 38 inches and one dress size!

Weighted down.....

Tomorrow is weigh in and I am not at all looking forward to it. And it isn't even because I am worried about the results. Sadly I have reached an emotional wall in my dieting and I am struggling to fight it. I wonder why dieting seems to be related to feeling miserable for me. Things come to mind as to how I can justify my feelings, but none of it seems to matter as I am going to have to keep pushing on either way. I have to lose the weight. I have to do something. I may as well continue on. Right now I just wish it felt more exciting and less overwhelming.

In the beginning the diet was a new exciting journey with challenges and exciting goals. Now it just feels like survival- one very, very,. very, very looooooong survival. Hmmph. I hope I can re-kindle my excitement and motivation soon- I want to be excited again.

Weigh-In 7/6/11

Last nights weigh in was short, sweet and to the point.

Lost 3.5 inches and 7 pounds!

Yeah! This means I am now only 2 pounds away from being under 300- something I have not been in YEARS and I have reached my goal in order to take a little break to celebrate my birthday!

I have had more than one person question my logic in taking a break in the program to celebrate when I am doing so well and it is going to undo some of this hard work and the only answer I have is this:
I want and need this time to celebrate. I started focusing on not just losing weight, but getting healthy and getting my life back before I started this diet program and I am going to have this program fit with my plans not take me over. Otherwise I'm living a plan and not my life.