Update for September

So it is the middle of September and my last post was in August. Needless to say I have a bit to update.

First, I have a new coach with my diet program. She is nice, but I have a feeling the chemistry is going to be a bit of a struggle. Only time will tell.

Second, my weigh ins have not been going well, nor has my full commitment to the diet program. I do want very much to succeed at loosing weight, but I have to find my way back and my personal drive again. I have been working very hard on this and this current week has been one of the best yet. It also has been a huge help that my sister and I have been working together to learn about each other, our strengths, our weaknesses and how to help, encourage and motivate each other effectively. As we help each other we have been helping ourselves.

I also made a personal new discovery. I am not the emotional eater that I thought I was, I am a social eater. I like to eat for social reasons and not being able to fully participate (by eating the food at the event) I feel left out and incomplete to the event, which also leaves me feeling upset and frustrated. I am not sure how I am going to work with this realization, but it is interesting for me either way. Realizing this helped me to understand why I lash out and feel angry when people tell me "it is no big deal to just not eat" at a social gathering or "it's just one ____ there will be another one." I feel as though they are telling me to miss out on life events and the reason, the food and diet, is just not a good enough reason to me.

My next weigh in this Thursday, September 15th. I am hoping it goes well.